Seeking Beauty

I just browsed around some of my very early posts—it was fun to see where I was then, knowing how much I have grown. In January of 2012, I committed to being vulnerable in sharing my story, because it meant sharing His story. It has been quite a process—my business card now reads “Writer/Speaker”—but it did not happen overnight—and I still anticipate much needed growth.

In these posts, I expressed my conviction to be open, as well as the many fears I found preventing me. Again, it is amazing to look back on the progress, especially in remembering how long it took me just to get to those early stages—so many prompts—so many opportunities. Admittedly, I was not reading the posts to reminisce—I was searching for encouragement.

I feel like I am right back at the beginning. Same struggles—new topic: beauty, dignity, and worth.

Aye, aye, aye. It feels like talking about the crash has gotten me out of having to approach this one too much, which has been true in regards to the healing process as well. The past three years—following the miraculous healing of my back—have proved to be quite a journey centered on seeking my beauty, dignity, and worth in Christ.

Though I do not know what it will look like, it seems to be time to start opening up about this in some capacity. God showed me how the first time around, and I trust that He will this time as well.

The point I want to make now is to never be content to stay where you are. There is always more Love to be received—always something new God can reveal to you about Himself, which will ultimately make you more aware of your own self. He cares about everything you endure—whether the situation which concerns you happened 28 years ago, 3 hours ago, or is expected in 2 weeks. God meets you in the present moment. If it is affecting you now, He cares about it now, and He wants to console you now. It does not matter how big or small you perceive the problem at hand. Stop trying to measure your pain, and just give it to Him. Grow. Be strengthened. Be healed. Share the Love He bestows upon you. It will not all happen at once, but it will make you whole.